Nervous

So the wedding went well, party was fun, hotel room was nice, etc. I'm over it.

In good news I am back on the health bandwagon and I'm dragging others up with me, as I usually do when I am motivated! I made these little calenders with spaces on each day to write calories and exercise time, and at the end of every week a space to write weight. I made one for Seth also and they are pinned next to my bed so I can be faced with them daily. We are both trying to lose some weight so I felt that we needed something new to get us going. Plus, to me weighing in once a week has a game-like feel to it, and is motivating because I find weight loss tv shows to be satisfying. Since I started last week I have been exercising almost every single day, and yesterday I even went twice. It helps to have Shirley and Seth to go with me, sometimes together and sometimes seperately. Summer's coming up and I can't hide behind winter clothes forever. Plus I would really like to once again fit into the pants that I could fit into last summer.

So my family is taking a trip to Israel at the beginning of June for Jake's 13th birthday. I am really excited about it because I havn't been there since I was 11, and I think I would really have fun there if I went now. Plus I havn't seen my family over there in that long, so I think they will be really happy to see me. They are always asking me to come. And my grandmother is 90 years old, this will probably be the last time I will ever see her. Last time my family took a trip to Israel together my grandfather was alive, and he died shortly thereafter, and I have felt pretty bad about that ever since. I am even trying to get Seth on board with the trip!

I just wrote my boss a letter explaining that I wanted 2 weeks off to go and also explaining the significance of the trip, but I am extremely nervous about my request being turned down. I don't know what I would do if they said no. I am worried because we are a bit short handed, although June is far enough away that it shouldn't matter by then. Plus, I know of 2 other people that just had their vaccation requests denied, even though they were for much shorter periods of time, for example: 3 days. Also, my bosses are not very understanding people, and are sometimes even huge jerks for no discernable reason. So, yes, I am very, very worried about it.

Still haven't written that essay for CSU, but I think I know the reason. As the reality of the cost of going to college out of state set in, I think I became more solid on the idea of just going to College Park, even though I would prefer Colorado. Going to CSU would cost twice as much, and I would be far away from all of my friends and family. I think part of me doesn't want to finish applying to CSU because if I got in then I would have to make a hard choice, while this way it's easier for me to just blow it off. But another part of me still wants to apply, because I may one day regret not doing so. It's just very confusing. So that's my story right now.