Blue

I think I'm depressed...what do I do!?! I havn't been depressed for like two years. I was happy as a clam about whatever I was doing and no matter what everything was ok. Just an even, good tempered, and solid mood. A few weeks ago it started going downhill. I just don't feel right anymore! I feel really bad and I keep hoping that the next day I will wake up and everything will be happy again, but it's just not happening. Now with this back pain I am getting even worse. I can't even exercise anymore which was something that was making me feel good every day, so I'm just miserable. I should be excited that I am going on vacation the day after tomorrow, but instead I just don't even care.

When I first started feeling bad a few weeks ago, I thought it was because I was lonely and I felt like I had no friends. Since then nothing has changed, but I'm afraid that I just feel bad for no reason and I'm just trying to find a reason, because at least then it would make sense. Nothing has changed situationally since I was happy so it must be my brain chemicals. Should I go on antidepressants? Or should I just try to wait it out?

Also my back is really starting to concern me. It is a constant pain in my spine and I'm taking a ton of ibuprofen which is lowering my blood pressure and making me drowsy. I just don't know what to do about anything!!!! I guess I should go to the doctor but I know that she'll just tell me to like take it easy and take ibuprofen. She might prescribe me 800mg ibuprofen at the most. I just want a solution! I'm too young to have this problem.